So I’m going back to California next week for a week. I planned this trip to see my old Life Group (Bible Study) boys. We’re like family. I’m very excited to see them.

The truth is I’ve been struggling with my decisions this year. I moved to Atlanta because life was going downhill fast in California. Also, I’ve wanted to live in the South for a long time.

However, I’d be lying if I said this trip wasn’t also a scouting trip to see if I should move back. James 1:16 comes to mind, “But when you ask him, be sure that your faith is in God alone. Do not waver, for a person with divided loyalty is as unsettled as a wave of the sea that is blown and tossed by the wind.” That’s me. Wavering like a koala bear way high in a eucalyptus tree in a hurricane.

The hard thing is I have all the freedom in the world. I have no wife or kids, no debt, and money in the bank. I truly have the freedom to do whatever I want. I just want to do what’s right.

One of my life verses happened to be in this morning’s devotional from my church, “Trust in the LORD with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take.” Proverbs 3:5-6. This is great advice, but I need God to work at microwave speed, but I’ve never really known him to do that.

I could have a good life in either place. Things in Atlanta are coming together. However, there’s unfinished work in California. Praying for God to nudge me one way or the other.

Welcome to the inside of my head. I rarely let people in here. Have a good day.